Taking each day, second by second, after the loss of my mother
I haven’t posted anything in a bit. I started one last week and never finished it because I felt like I was harping on something that was said to me, but honestly, I am having such a hard time processing that conversation and, mainly, because of that, I have been feeling so conflicted. I hate […]
This was the first weekend I had actually tried to be a person. I mowed and ran the weed eater. My yard looked pretty good. I also decided to clean up the house and do the laundry. The past few weeks all I have really done is sleep. I have kept up with the mowing […]
The 4th of July was very hard. When it came to holidays, it was typically just me, my mom and brother. My mom would stay the night, the night before and spend the whole day with me, preparing whatever meal and just relaxing. She would spend the day making fun of my poor cat Louie, […]
I am not sure even where to start. Right now, I am angry and upset. I was told by someone that I needed to put on my “HAPPY Face” and making rounds for people to see me. People want to see the “old me”, the happy, outgoing, sarcastic, whimsical version of me. At this point, […]
One of my sisters in Nevada, Las Vegas, sent my mom the complete series of Little House on the Prairie. She sent it, probably, about a month or so before our mom died. My mom loved her movies and T.V shows. She came over and spent every Sunday with me. I’d pick her up early […]
I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning. Just getting up and facing the day is such a huge task. I didn’t sleep well and just wanted to lay in bed and cry and then sleep. I made it out of bed but was in such a bad mood. Griped at all of […]
Since I lost my mother. I didn’t think I would have to say those words, let alone type them for at least another 20 to 30 years. I never expected my mother to live to be 100 but I certainly never expected her to die at 60. So young and so unexpected. The center of […]
